// Off Tilt //

Yup, it’s one of the two May Day bank holidays this weekend - superb! I love extra days off… Just wish we’d get St. George’s Day off too… stupid England.

Well-being significantly improved and all pretty much back to normal… Getting slightly sick of baths as the shower is still broken (since November) but the plumber called round last night to say he’s going to fix it Tuesday. He did also say that about 6 weeks ago, so I won’t go holding my breath.

Work is quite exhausting at the moment, but I feel as though I’m making progress and things are getting better… it’ll never be a perfect job, but at least I feel I’m making a difference and I’m depended on (though maybe a bit too much).

I seem to have developed an amazing ability to actually get worse at Squash each time I play it. I reckon by my 10th game I should revert to the level of a 1-year-old child who can’t yet walk without grabbing onto the sofa. Considering my previous game with Steve was quite equally matched, I did manage to really be quite pathetic and lose 1-3, and he’d done an hour in the gym before I even turned up! But I do feel 9-hours of Carphone is far more exhausting than any gym session…!

Right, 1.30pm. Think I should get up, now… Ciao! (”,)

I’m feeling a bit better for myself, thanks to those who asked!

I do believe I’m coming down with something now though…. fan-bloomin’-tastic… Ah well, such is life!! (”,)

Update 5/4/07: I suppose I should fill this out a bit! Indeed I am coming down with something. The world is all now a bit of a blur and distant as I’m drugged up to the eyeballs to try and fight it off. I could probably be shot and not notice. I’m not even sure where I am or how I got here… lol

General well-being is good though. Looking forward to have a 4-day weekend, though I hope its not whilst being ill.. Pah, timing!

Happy Easter, all!

I’m not sure what’s been up, and is currently up with me at the moment. I’m seem to be making a pretty good job of messing up friendships - new and old. If they’re reading this, sorry! I just seem to be continuously low, with low energy, low esteem and a far low capacity than ever to ‘deal with things’.

I’ve never really been a whinger, I’ve always just got on with things, looked on the bright side… But now I just seem to have the feeling that I don’t give a monkeys. It’s when you fall into situations like this you realise who your true friends are, and those who mysteriously go quiet on you. Maybe compounded by my behaviour recently, yes, but still, I am human and do make mistakes. Seems unfair for everyone to seemingly punish me at the same time. Or just talk to me about it? I can listen as well as talk.
Is it a back-to-work feeling? Don’t think so. It’s not normally bothered by that much. Though work at current isn’t its best, but you’ve just got to get on with it. There should be some light at the end of the tunnel?

Ever wished you could play a day again? Just wake up in the morning, Groundhog-Day style, and it be the morning before, but you’re fully aware of the previous time you did this day, so you won’t make the same mistakes twice. Won’t say what you said. Won’t do what you did… Or try things a bit differently to see if at the end of the day things worked out a lot better? It could end up  like the Butterfly Effect though, with one slight change altering the day for the worse - or better. But finding that balance could take its time… and too many nosebleeds. Though I have been having a lot of those recently (circa. 2 a day). Perhaps I’m changing the past constantly but don’t know it? Oooh… Perhaps not.

Not sure really the point of this is. I’m not expecting any response. Maybe just getting it out there into the ether will help my mind sort it self out. Who knows.

Apologies for the lack of comedy. Normally programming will resume shortly. I hope.

As they say in the US: “Write me”.

Well I’ve managed to bring my office computer back to life. It’s been a a donor for parts in upgrading the Media Centre PC in the living room for the past few weeks, but now that’s complete I can put this all back together now!

Feeling all old skool, listening to an old garage mix by my mate Andy Cohen (sixspeed) - ah, memories of yoof!

Today’s (well, Friday, though this will be logged as Saturday) has been the 3rd day of my holiday from work. I’ve still had a couple of calls from work, and needed to sort something out, but I’m still rested and feeling a bit more relaxed. I suppose the doom and gloom of having to return on Monday doesn’t help though. I know I shouldn’t think about it, but I do. Still got the weekend to go And then it’s two 4-day weeks of course - thank you Easter! (”,)

Sleep hasn’t been my forté recently. Lots on my mind, so it never really slows down to a sleep state. I wake up lots in the night, and more so in the morning, where I kinda force myself to go back to sleep, else I’d be up at 7am. And at the end of it all, I don’t feel completely rested. Stupid body.

Was #1 Grandson today as I fixed my Gran’s TV aerial, installed a second digi-box, and sorted out her phone line problems. Glad I did else it would’ve been mighty confusing when BT turned up to install another phone line (which we didn’t actually want). Edit: Aerial’s busted again. D’oh.

Lastly I suppose there’s an admission. Yes, I hate MySpace (still) and I had kinda gone off the whole ‘community friends’ thing, but was persuaded to join Facebook by my new friend Laura (hey, btw!). And I admit it, I like it! Its very well coded, and quite clever, but also secure (only your approved friends can see your info) so not any Tom, Dick, Harry has access to your ‘personals’. And yes, I even managed to take a semi-decent picture as a Profile is nothing on ‘Face’book without an actual picture of your face. Damnit! [Geek] This blog’s RSS feed is read by Facebook and will update that automatically! [/Geek]
1am, should head off. Laters. I won’t leave it quite so long next time, ok? (”,)

Ok, yes, it has been months since I’ve blogged. I dunno - my heart hasn’t been in it and there’s not been much to really blog about. As with anyone who asks, I’m “plodding” along as per.

Car: fine. Work: fine (though a little monotonous at the moment). Love: good (careful what I write here lol). Flat: tidy.

So - what’s happened? Christmas. That happened. What - you missed it? It was cold.

And that wraps that up… Return back in another 5 months for the next tantilising update!